Amazeballs. (And 10 things about life right now.)

^^^^^^^ The reason for that title is simply because I HATE THAT WORD!

If partial unemployment has taught me anything, it's the following:

1.) I suddenly have an obsession with Giuliana Rancic.

2.) I freaked out and joined a bunch of groups including a walking group for women my mom's age (nothing wrong with that!), contacting all the volunteering places I possibly can and signing up for an adult ballet class. Which is funny, because the last time I took ballet was also around the first time I saw Lizzie McGuire. 

3.) I am slowly morphing into some sort of quarter-life crisis Martha Stewart. I am growing pumpkins. I am utterly concerned with finding the perfect pumpkin soup recipe. I buy house magazines. I include "take out dog" and "water plants" on my to-do list. My 2-year-old betta fish Lloyd died a couple days ago, so I bought a new fish with the help of my boyfriend. He's not eating well (the fish, not the boyfriend...) and I am deeply concerned. Like a partial stay-at-home fish mom. It's all very odd. And pretty much a 180 from my college life last year.

4.) I talk to the animals like they're people. We have photo shoots.

"Let me sleep, crazy woman!"

5.) I'm writing again. It's not much, but finishing my first novel was one of my proudest accomplishments. Starting the second is daunting but necessary, and working part-time allows me that opportunity.

6.) I really miss walking around campus. I love walking, and I don't have much reason to anymore. Also, walking alone around neighborhoods freaks me out sometimes, depending on where I am and what time of day it is. So now...I do laps around the mall. It's a small mall, though, so after a few laps people start to look concerned.

7.) Anytime my phone rings with an unknown number, I freak. ("Employer calling for an interview?!") But every time it is a robot speaking Spanish and telling me I won a free cruise. Every. Single. Time. 

8.) I cry watching "Say Yes to the Dress." And I am INTJ. Crying isn't my thing. So that says a lot.

9.) I have no clue how to be an adult. I rethink career moves every day. One day I decide to be a nanny. The next day I think I should just be a secretary forever. Later I contemplate moving to the forest or something, even though I hate things that crawl or scuttle.

10.) Despite it all, I am grateful for this immensely frustrating time. And I know that when I am finally gainfully employed, I will be all the more ready because of it.

So that's all. Oh and P.S.-TOMORROW IS FRIDAY!!!