The thinking moments

They exist for all of us.

For some it's while drinking coffee, for others it's in the shower, and for others still it's when they've been stuck at home, sick, for the third day in a row.

For me, my moment of deep thought has been all of the above.

(And all three of those things happened today.)

I have been thinking a lot about perfection, and the obsessions that have plagued me my entire life. And have plagued a lot of others for most of their lives, too. Especially women.

Why is that?

If everything is as I want them to be, and I haven't a care in the world, then I worry about the past or future.

Have you ever tried to carry all of the worry from your entire future life and pack it onto your shoulders in one instant?

It's probably not healthy.

"Who will I lose? Will I be ill? Will I be unemployed? What if my children get hurt? What if they hate me? Will the supervolcano erupt on Friday?"

Thankfully for us all, life happens one moment at a time.

Just like we cannot possibly eat a lifetime's worth of food right now, we can't shoulder the burden of our entire future this moment.

We have to digest each minute before we can take on another. 

Taking on too much will just make us terribly uncomfortable.

So at the end of this year, sprinkled with its ups, downs, valleys and hills, I want to say that I am grateful for our imperfect world.

Filled with its dessert and veggie and mystery meat kind of moments.

That is what makes life colorful, worthwhile. It's what makes it living, rather than just existing. This place would be awfully boring without the unexpected variety.

After all, vanilla ice cream may be perfect in its own right, but it's certainly not going to satisfy anyone in the long run.