^^^^^^^ The reason for that title is simply because I HATE THAT WORD!
If partial unemployment has taught me anything, it's the following:
1.) I suddenly have an obsession with Giuliana Rancic.
2.) I freaked out and joined a bunch of groups including a walking group for women my mom's age (nothing wrong with that!), contacting all the volunteering places I possibly can and signing up for an adult ballet class. Which is funny, because the last time I took ballet was also around the first time I saw Lizzie McGuire.
3.) I am slowly morphing into some sort of quarter-life crisis Martha Stewart. I am growing pumpkins. I am utterly concerned with finding the perfect pumpkin soup recipe. I buy house magazines. I include "take out dog" and "water plants" on my to-do list. My 2-year-old betta fish Lloyd died a couple days ago, so I bought a new fish with the help of my boyfriend. He's not eating well (the fish, not the boyfriend...) and I am deeply concerned. Like a partial stay-at-home fish mom. It's all very odd. And pretty much a 180 from my college life last year.
4.) I talk to the animals like they're people. We have photo shoots.
|"Let me sleep, crazy woman!"|
5.) I'm writing again. It's not much, but finishing my first novel was one of my proudest accomplishments. Starting the second is daunting but necessary, and working part-time allows me that opportunity.
6.) I really miss walking around campus. I love walking, and I don't have much reason to anymore. Also, walking alone around neighborhoods freaks me out sometimes, depending on where I am and what time of day it is. So now...I do laps around the mall. It's a small mall, though, so after a few laps people start to look concerned.
7.) Anytime my phone rings with an unknown number, I freak. ("Employer calling for an interview?!") But every time it is a robot speaking Spanish and telling me I won a free cruise. Every. Single. Time.
8.) I cry watching "Say Yes to the Dress." And I am INTJ. Crying isn't my thing. So that says a lot.
9.) I have no clue how to be an adult. I rethink career moves every day. One day I decide to be a nanny. The next day I think I should just be a secretary forever. Later I contemplate moving to the forest or something, even though I hate things that crawl or scuttle.
10.) Despite it all, I am grateful for this immensely frustrating time. And I know that when I am finally gainfully employed, I will be all the more ready because of it.
So that's all. Oh and P.S.-TOMORROW IS FRIDAY!!!